Smoke & Mirrors.

List time:

Mon, 01 Mar 2010 00:39:32 GMT

Things I did today:

--Re-practiced parallel parking (it'd been awhile). But I've still got it :) Should be getting my license Friday.
--Wrote a stupid essay on my heritage, that ended up being good. My mom loved it, but she's like that.
--BS'd an argument paper on love & hate (stupid stupid stupid).
--Didn't get to do what I wanted :(

I did more, but I stopped caring half way through this.

:o

Sat, 27 Feb 2010 23:22:31 GMT

Annnd he's here??!! Should be a great night :)

EDIT: Prediction was correct

...

Sat, 27 Feb 2010 02:54:26 GMT

And this is the part where I admit defeat, right?
I dislike not being entirely sure.
But more than that, I don't like making myself look eager, then consequently stupid in front of someone. It only took 3 seconds of getting my hopes up, and I end up looking like an idiot.

And this movie I'm watching is horrible!
But it's all ok because I kicked ass on that advanced topics test....well, it wasn't really that hard, but still!

Dress

Fri, 26 Feb 2010 22:31:32 GMT

I'm considering this for prom?

For Better Picture (just click on it..)

throw your homework onto the fiiire.

Thu, 25 Feb 2010 23:53:53 GMT

I hate how snow days ruin my train of thought. I was feeling really productive this week. But, ever since 10 am this morning I've been feeling most lazy, though I did do some work with iTunes. That generally takes a bit of motivation.

The French trip is starting to feel more real. I guess some part of me is still thinking "this isn't going to happen." or "don't get your hopes up, something's going to go wrong."...but I hate that part of me. And I've been trying to ignore it. At the meeting last night we started on stuffing/addressing donation letters to local businesses/establishments...and I didn't leave the school until about 9:30pm. Garrett and I counted 205 envelopes at the end of it, and we took some home too. I'm excited to see what donations we may get. Also, only about 5 of us are going now. Which means we get to go with another group. Potentially exciting?

I'm really nervous about a few things that are coming up...and I know things haven't even begun yet. Ok, I'm not really nervous, I just want to try to avoid an major stressfests, freakouts, cataclysmic catastrophes, etc. School work on its own is hard to manage.

These things are on the horizon:

--State Governor's Cup
I'm going to start studying some more for LA...though I'm doubtful I'll place, I don't want to be dead last either. I've been weirdly lucky so far. Also FPS is getting intense. We're making some changes to our methods and also memorizing so much stuff. But, I do want to place high. We've come pretty far already.

--Skills USA State
This will be my first year there, and mostly for everyone else who is going. I'm on a Quiz Bowl team (how weird, right?) and I'm also on a News Broadcast team as a guinea pig, basically. You go in and have to create a news segment with the materials they give you. I'm going to be anchoring because apparently I have a "pretty voice"...?? Anyway, I'm excited about going...except I have to memorize a bunch of Skills propaganda. And I think Mrs. Honaker might want me to run for a state office. Um, what?

--Ohio University Southern's EMPixx Awards
So I'm pretty sure Brooke and I came up with one of the best ideas ever for this video which we'll be putting in the stop motion animation category. I'm pretty excited about it. Basically we're going to be using some cords from the studio (we have more than plenty) and show everyone the horrifying effects to those who don't wrap up their cords and put them away....(in a silent film/clinky piano/b&w/horror story kind of way) I HAVE to do this competition (no one's making me, but I have to.) ..because it's sponsored by OU and also I need a dose of creative videography. I might submit some photography too. I'm going to work on scripting really soon and try to put aside a weekend for production. I just need a crew and some talent, and I've already had some offers.

--Foreign Language Fest
There's not much to say here that's not been said in year's past. It's going to be hectic and it's going to possibly pay-off in the long run. I'm doing Drama, Dance, Writing, and Reading. Not too bad, but we'll see.

...So back to Physics homework. I have to create another egg drop device (for what? the 3rd time in my life?) :///
Also my stomach/abdomen hurts quite a bit....and I can't figure out why :/

william, it was really nothing.

Mon, 22 Feb 2010 22:26:21 GMT

I feel like a contradiction.

EDIT:

Actually, I'm super frustrated and even more so pissed off.
I'm completely disgusted and I just want to cry. How about that?
WHINE.

5 for 50

Thu, 18 Feb 2010 01:52:48 GMT

Mrs. Thomas (my french teacher) has been telling me about these short films her son had part in making:

http://www.bagavagabonds.com/fiveforfifty_telephone.html

I've only watched The Test and Telephone Man...
but if you're a native of Fleming Co. you might enjoy the characters in The Test, mostly because it's a true story with real characters.

The whole 5 for 50 exercise has given me some ideas.

More Neverwhere

Wed, 17 Feb 2010 18:33:57 GMT

And now they're making it into a play to be shown in Chicago this summer.

http://neverwhat.blogspot.com/

Here's the blog.

I can't wait to go to London Above this summer, though I wish I could somehow get to Chicago to see it.

Sore.

Wed, 17 Feb 2010 05:31:42 GMT

I'm in so much pain from working out these past few days. Oh, I guess I should mention that in the light of being cooped with boundless energy I've decided to work out some.

Let's just say that my legs and torso hate hate hate hate me right now. But, at the same time I like the way my body feels right after I get done. Endorphins, y'know?

Besides doing the normal strength stuff I've been dancing. And not zumba, like dancing forreal. I used to dance up through middle school and even though I didn't care for it at the time, I find it somewhat stress relieving. It's nice. I kind of miss just going into a studio by myself and doing what I wanted and playing whatever music I thought was danceable enough. I feel a little silly doing it now, but it works well as a workout. I've been meaning to get my legs back in shape, since they are probably the only muscles I've managed to keep since my dance/gymnastics days. They were a little scarier back in those days...so I don't think I want to venture back to that, but anyway...

I think I pulled a muscle or something crazy in my hip about a week or more ago. And it's been driving me crazy. I thought it first that it may have had to do with my inactivity, but I really can't tell. My whole body hurts right now. But before that my back had been killing me. So I figured exercise might do me some good, rather than going to a chiropractor just yet. It hasn't been bothering me lately, so I'm just going to keep active. I plan running this spring. I'm just hoping I don't get shin splints(well I still believe it was stress fractures, which I've figured to be result of my Vitamin D deficiency), because I wouldn't even wish that sort of pain on my worst enemies.

So I'ma get some sleep, and hopefully get up a little earlier...I might have practice tomorrow, so I want to be sure to get some workout time in.

My omelge conversation with a death eater and my recruitment.

Sun, 14 Feb 2010 05:46:15 GMT

So, omegle has provided me with several interesting conversations (and interesting new friends!). But this one from tonight has probably been one of my favorites (even if I was supporting the Dark Lord, sorry guyz.) Anyway. The person I was talking to is dubbed Stranger and I'm dubbed You...just to save any trouble.

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!

Stranger: Morsmordre!

You: Buuhh??

Stranger: I killed some muggles, so now I have to conjure the dark mark to let everyone know.

You: god you had me so scared.

Stranger: Well, you should be.

Stranger: I mean, unless you're a death eater

You: death eaters. I'll never understand their ways

Stranger: Oh, come on!

Stranger: Do you really support that Potter brat?

You: I'm indifferent. I think he wants attention, really

You: "oooh my scar hurtssss"

You: so what?

Stranger: Exactly.

Stranger: Don't you see how much better the world would be under the Dark Lord's control?

You: I do. Although, I can't convince myself into being a death eater. I don't know how to get into it.

Stranger: OH.

Stranger: Well then have I got a proposition for you.

Stranger: See, the Dark Lord is recruiting at this very moment.

Stranger: Currently, he's got some of us out getting some giants, some are grabbing werewolves.

You: ah, and you were assigned omegle?

Stranger: So all you need is to answer a few questions.

Stranger: Yes, indeed I was.

Stranger: via the Quidditch World Cup.

You: ahh alright.

Stranger: SO.

Stranger: First question would be, of course, are you pureblood?

You: Yes, I am.

Stranger: Great, alright.

Stranger: So then, two would be, where did you attend wizarding school?

You: Hogwarts...though I disagree with some of it's teachings.

Stranger: Oh, excellent, the Dark Lord will be most pleased. :]

Stranger: And three

Stranger: is how do you feel about Albus Dumbledore?

You: He's losing his mind, I think. Afterall he's behind Potter.

Stranger: Fantastic.

Stranger: Well, I'll get this application a rush order to the Dark Lord

Stranger: But I'm sure you'll be accepted.

Stranger: So, let me use this opportunity to welcome you.

You: Excellent. Excellent, indeed.

Stranger: Marvelous. :]

Stranger: SO!

Stranger: What brings you to the World Cup?

Stranger: just fancied a game of Quidditch?

You: Oh, well not exactly. I just thought I'd see what types of people I could run into.

Stranger: Indeed? Well there are quite a few disgusting mudbloods and muggles around

Stranger: it's sickening

You: It is. I can smell them, it seems.

Stranger: Seriously.

Stranger: I'm only assigned to this gig because I ACCIDENTALLY spilled firewhiskey on the Dark Lord's robes.

Stranger: I was supposed to be sent to Knockturn Alley

Stranger: But no. He crucioed me and reassigned me.

You: Man, well at least your endeavors have been somewhat successful.

Stranger: Indeed! Perhaps I shall be rewarded. :]

Stranger: Although he's pretty attached to Wormtail and Bellatrix.

You: Yes, well they have helped him rise to power once more.

Stranger: Oh, Bellatrix doesn't do jack shit.

Stranger: He just likes her for her boobs.

You: Haha, you know, that does makes sense.

Stranger: Yeah, and before she escaped from Azkaban, you would not BELIEVE the things the Dark Lord did with Lucius Malfoy

You: Oh, I wouldn't, would I?

Stranger: ...maybe you would, but I'm sure you don't want to know.

You: Probably not...I can only imagine, though I don't even want to do that.

Stranger: Seriously.

Stranger: yeah, it's a rough life, being a Death Eater.

Stranger: But it's totally worth it.

Stranger: I mean, once the Dark Lord rules all of Britain, we'll be royalty.

You: That's a pretty rewarding prospect.

Stranger: Definitely!

Stranger: What will you do with your riches?

You: Good question. I wouldn't know.

Stranger: I think I'm going to buy a Hippogriff.

Stranger: I've always wanted one.

You: That sounds ideal. Maybe I get myself some magical creatures.

Stranger: You should.

Stranger: But anyway!

Stranger: My dark mark is burning, so I gotta go.

Stranger: We'll let you know about your application

You: Sounds good!

Stranger: Right. Take care!

Your conversational partner has disconnected.

EDIT: A few hours later I had the pleasure of speaking to the Dark Lord himself (though I have a feeling it could've been the same person talking to me here.)

old stuff?

Sat, 13 Feb 2010 02:10:17 GMT

So, I went and looked through some of my old messages on facebook tonight. There really aren't that many, to be honest. But, it was so weird for me. This sounds utterly ridiculous, but some of them made me tear up. I'm a sentimental person, I guess, but I don't usually find myself crying over old messages people have sent me.

But there were a few in particular that just did it for me. It's weird how someone you've known for so long isn't the same person they used be. It's weird to read their kind and caring words, and to know them as someone very much different from that now. I mean, I can't even rationalize about that. How do you? I wish people didn't change so drastically, but what else is there to do? I can't mosey around wishing that old friend would wake up from this newer reverie about themselves and become like they were years ago. It's not as simple as that. I know it's not.

I can accept. It's cool.

OU's feature film: Trailerpark

Sat, 13 Feb 2010 00:46:56 GMT

Trailerpark - Official Full Length Trailer HD from trailerpark movie on Vimeo.

This a feature film made by students from The School of Media Arts and Studies at OU, recently.

There's more information here: http://www.ohioalumni.org/trailerpark
And the blog: http://trailerparkmovie.wordpress.com/
Oh, and the website: http://trailerparkmovie.com/home.php
(if you're even the slightest bit interested^^)

It just amazed me. I hope that I could possibly be apart of something like this if I choose to attend. I would find it really exciting to see what goes into making an entire full length movie, like that. Plus, I like the story, from what I've read.

Athens

Fri, 12 Feb 2010 01:27:00 GMT

The more I research about this place, the more I can see myself living there. The university and the town are so quaint.

Also I've been doing some looking into of this place(only 12 minutes from campus):http://www.uuathens.org/

WAT!

Thu, 11 Feb 2010 05:14:56 GMT

I had no idea Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman was a show that he wrote beforehand:
en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Neverwhere

I'm going to have to get my hands on this!!!

It's such a great book so far...and I'm pretty sure my adoration (I mean love) for Neil Gaiman has intensified quite further.
I must find the episodes online somewhere.

music tastes

Tue, 09 Feb 2010 21:17:31 GMT

I seriously can't get over Sigur Rós for some reason. I didn't think I'd like them. But that make me feel really relaxed, which I don't feel so often anymore.

But...

Tue, 09 Feb 2010 06:01:07 GMT

You know what makes it all better?

My friends and their reassurance that I'm not crazy, and the fact that this summer I'll be in Europe and hopefully making it into GSP...where I can start afresh with even more great people to surround me.

Fuming?

Tue, 09 Feb 2010 04:19:29 GMT

My God! I wish I could put you in a box so you could stop fucking up other people's lives!!

Ugh, I'm trying to suppress some anger right now. So excuse my language. But, really. You already screwed me and someone else over...don't you do it to more of my friends or people I find to be decent.

If Filmmakers directed the Super Bowl...

Sat, 06 Feb 2010 03:22:56 GMT

I personally enjoy the Wes Anderson take on it.

Y'know

Thu, 04 Feb 2010 03:10:12 GMT

I'm totally onto your weird game and I'm not the only one. I can't wait until I'm removed from it completely.

Now to change the mood quite considerably with a cute picture:

nervous expression.

Wed, 03 Feb 2010 00:56:20 GMT

nervous expression., originally uploaded by Flick-tina.

My sock monkey kinda creeps me out, tbh.

What am I doing?

Tue, 02 Feb 2010 22:28:46 GMT

So, I think I'll post just to keep myself awake, while mom makes dinner. Otherwise I'll fall asleep and lose my appetite, etc. And then my plan for tonight will not work out. It's a pretty simple plan, really: Eat. Sleep (probably for 12-ish hours). Wake-up and do some Physics.

Sounds good, right? I hope it works. I've been depriving myself of sleep--which is impossible to catch up on, btw.

Lately, anyhow, I've been focusing really hard on school (how's this different from any other time, you may ask?) and yes, it's cutting into my sleep time quite menacingly, but I feel good about it (well, when I'm not dragging myself around school). Last semester I felt like I was working hard, but to be honest, I could've put forth more effort to do more activities and getting higher grades. I usually just did enough to cut it, but I'm starting to feel differently. Here are some of the changes I've seen (besides that fact that 24 hours is a lot shorter than I once thought):

-I do all of my homework. ALL of it. I've not missed one homework assignment in any of my classes all semester. Uh, high-five, right? I mean, sometimes I have to stay up to midnight or do some in homeroom, but at least it's done. If you know me, you know that I'm not as keen on my homework, but who really is?

-I study. Well, I kind of have to. I have mainly math classes this semester...and well, what can I do?

-I'm becoming more actively involved in clubs. I've helped a lot in taking on our community service project in SHF for Haiti. I can be pretty lazy, so I figured I'd take some initiative this time. Also, working on making more time for video stuff. I want to enter some project for the Ohio Southern's EMPixx awards.

-I'm still reading! Well, mainly on the weekends, but I haven't abandoned it.

-uh, that's it.

Yeah, I have almost no life, right now. But I've got to do well this semester. Not that I'm doing poorly...I just want my GPA to go up. Ugh, yet I try to take as many challenging classes as I can. I don't think those two things correlate so well. :/

Oh yeah, I'm moving to Iceland...

songs backwards.

Sun, 31 Jan 2010 20:30:24 GMT

My new friend Stefán showed this to me. Provided me with some entertainment for awhile.

http://jeffmilner.com/backmasking.htm

cat love

Thu, 28 Jan 2010 23:05:00 GMT

http://journal.neilgaiman.com/2010/01/and-in-end.html

I've been reading Neil Gaiman's blog lately. He's been talking a lot about his cat Zoe. I feel I can relate with Moxy...and it makes me sad :(

Bluish

Thu, 28 Jan 2010 04:02:56 GMT

http://stereogum.com/mp3/Sondre%20Lerche%20-%20Bluish.mp3

Bluish--Sondre Lerche

Love this cover...so muuuuccccch.

....

Wed, 27 Jan 2010 22:48:26 GMT

This blog is going to start accumulating dust...
Honestly, I can't even sit down and think nor do I have anything to write about as of late.

So my disappearance (for a little while) is probably imminent...

Also, the times I get to eat and sleep are becoming the only times of the day that I appreciate...simply because they rarely happen. Ufffghgh,